Interesting?

Well, I heard a statement made yesterday, " Agreement, does not mean something is right". I began thinking about that statement. For me it spoke mountains. I live my life to pour out for others. No matter how tired or drained, its what I do. I may not agree with people or a decision, but yet and still I will do what is right when required.

Please understand, by no means am I claiming to be a saint. I have a million flaws and maybe more than most. I have a ton of dry bones in my life that I am not proud of. However at the end of the day, I would never change any of that because it gave me greater understanding. An understanding that I may not have had.

SO agreement? What does that mean? I see alot of people who will manipulate people into agreeing that their way is the best way. I have seen people make a decision based on just wanting to agree and not argue. Why? Right and wrong are just that right and wrong!

I have become somewhat of a safe harbor person. Their are very few homes I will go to and feel comfortable. I do not surround myself with alot of people becasue I have been told that my face tells the story.

I will never believe that I have to agree with someone to do the right thing. My job is to love unconditionally. Does that mean I will like everyone or their ideologies? NO, because trust me, their are a few folks that should be happy I try to do the right thing.......lol

I know one thing for sure, one thing I can agree on is that Jesus is the one solid truth in my life. He does not always agree with me but He does allow me to make choices and in turn suffer the consequences. He does not employ me to be perfect, He employs me to strive for the mark and keep panting after Him.

SO are you living your life to be in agreement or are you living your life to the fullness God has for you by doing what is right, not perfect, but right?

So many times we don't think something through or we attempt to justify a choice or decision. Why? What God has for you is for you and no one else. Trying to live the life of another is guaranteed to fail. Try being who God intended you to be.

I am completely ok with the fact that I am quirky, weird, OCD, ADHD and truly am a morning person, I love to cook, clean and I love kiddos as much they make a little crazy, I love them, I love crafts and reading. Quality is much more to me than quantity. I am not very social in the entertaining sense of the word, I would rather have a bustling, noisy house of teenagers than be sitting in a friends house.

God has given me a few good friends but for the most part my kiddos are my world and I would rather have a lifetime of them, then a few moments of "ME" time.

Do you agree? Guess what its ok because your agreement does not make or break what my heart knows to be right!

Big Texas! Big Adventures = Big Soul Seraching

Wow! Its been an adventure. We made it to Cedar Hill in June. What seemed to be a move without adverse affects, turned into a ROLLER COASTER!

I was blessed beyond measure to have the entire summer off with my kids. Football was in full swing. Trying to find my way around was great fun. Our town is not that big but getting everywhere else is.

My house is full of teens. Our dog died after 5 years from some type of poisoning.

We are turning into the same house we were in San Diego. Many teens and shannigans. I won't change it at all.

Reflections to come.

Moving Day is almost here.

Well after many months of praying, deciding and now waiting, the time has come. We are finally moving. Texas here we come. The movers have taken all our stuff, everyone is learning to love an air mattress, the dog has an attitude and well dinner organization is at a hault. I cannot wait to actually have our lives back. It is an amazing journey we are embarking on and definitely life altering.

Some things I know to be true becasue God has given me clarity:

1. No matter what anyone says this move is the right thing for MY family.
2. I am going to learn to make PITA Bread.
3. My cleaning company will flourish.
4. I will cheer on my boys of fall.
5. I will hinor God in every decision I make.
6. My house will be our sanctuary.

I do not know what else is going to happen but hey, God is still in control, right? My kids are being awesome about it and I could not ask for better. Change is scary but I am destined to find the fun in it all.

Keanu doing the Haka at the Multicultural Fair

Cheer Competition 2011

What an adventure!

I think getting your life back on track has to be one of the hardest things to do. My life is a continuous movement of the heart God gave me. I was listening to a sermon today and the question was posed, "When you leave this earth, what few words would describe your life, that would glorify God?" I found it very interesting and pondered the thought. After much thought I was like, I got it! Her life was a drink offering! In the bible it talked about an offering of wine and water representing the pouring out of ones life for another. That was it, that was me. God gave me the spirit to pour out to others. I don't have alot and I am a tad quirky, but I never say no and willgive my all to anyone who needs it.

So I then began to look back on the days where I felt so tired and drained, wondering who would fill me back up. God's word fills me when I have nothing left. I have learned over the past few months that I must continue to do God's will for my life even though I may feel tired and broken.

I must rest in his strength and know that he is God. I finally understnad that scripture. I know how to rest in him. I strive for the Proverbs 31 woman mentality. I know I can not have idle hands and I am to bring honor to my family.  People make fun because I am a neat freak and wants things a certain way, but God does not say living in chaos is ok. I can't function or pour out if I am in chaos, either mentally or spiritually.

Seeking after God's will has tested me. I am still on the journey towards His will and will stay on the road until the end.

Keanu Johnson DE Class of 2012